Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me...
04.03.2006., subota
Wake me...
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UPDATE: ok, ovaj sam post vec objavila, ali ovaj blog zeka pa mi ga je izbrisalo... pa evo opet ga objavljujem... pozdrav Znam, znam.. nije me bilo nekog vremena.... vise od mjesec dana, ali nisam zaboravila na ovaj blog... eto, jucer sam bila ocajne volje pa sam sjela za kompjuter i napisala ovo.... ne da sam sretna napisanim, ali bilo mi je vrijeme da nesto objavim, pa.... hvala vam sto posjecujete moj blog!! POZDRAV!! p.s: obecajem pisat cu cesce!! Why do I feel so horrible, So desperate to find happyness? Why do I wish to sleep And never wake up again… Why does every word I say Every move I make just hurt everybody around all the people I care about.. Why do I try to help everyone When I just keep dissapointing everybody…including myself… Why do I have to cry every Damn night at the thought of Everything I've been through?! And i just find out that my life Doesn't have any sence… any meaning.. That i'm just a girl pretending To be who she's not… I learned a big lesson…. You can't make everybody happy Without hurting someone you care about And that's just real life… And i just keep hoping that This is all just a nightmare And i will hopefully wake up and Stop all the pain… And day by day i keep hoping And day by day my hopes keep fading,,, I guess I have to be strong and Keep on fighting… In spite of the consequences…. Till the end…. |
28.01.2006., subota
Just me...
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Ova pjesmica je nastala maloprije... imala sam dogovor s The sun goes down da ce svaka napisat pjesmicu u 10 minuta.... hm, pa evo sta je od moje ispalo... kad ona objavi svoju javim vam.... In the lonelyness of my room I'm feeling the tears slowly falling down my sad face... but I don't wanna stop them... Cause the preassure inside is just too big and I can't fight against my feelings... or I don't want to... My feelings are all mixed up and everything around me just feels so unreal... but why? I look at the window and see my own miserable reflection, and I ask myself... who is that girl?... And then I realize I don't know myself, don't know that sad girl... or I don't want to know her... Am I just afraid to be who I am or afraid to become that miserable girl I see... I don't know... I close my eyes, drying the tears and looking at the window again... what do I see... For the first time in my life I see the real me... strong, unbreakable, a real life fighter... And I realize that's who I wanna be... wanna be... me... |
24.01.2006., utorak
Sometimes...
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Ok, da se za pocetak ispricam, nisam dugo nista pisala... znate vec kako je to, skola i obveze... ali evo uhvatila sam vremena napisati nesto novo... ova je pjesmica zericu dugacija (nema rime)... ali nadam se da ce vam se svidjeti... Sometimes I feel like shouting out what I feel deep inside, but I'm too weak to face it... Sometimes I feel like everything's falling appart, every move I make is just a big mistake... Sometimes I feel my life's worthless, and I'm nothing but a shadow desperately seeking for the place where I belong... Sometimes I wanna run away from all the horrors I'm going through, and just forget everything I can't stop thinking of... Sometimes I wanna fight, but I realize I'm not strong enough to face this adventure called my life... Sometimes I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up again... And sometimes I just find myself seeking for a reason to live, hoping that I'll figure it out... someday... |
15.01.2006., nedjelja
Broken heart...
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vjerovali ili ne ova je prva kitica trebala biti uvod u pjemsicu o skoli ali ubrzo se pretvorila u,hm...pa ovo: Packing my things, saying goodbye, looking at the door and wondering why... Why did it have to end this way, why am I standing here ready to go away... I don't wanna go, cause I still love you, but deep in my heart I always knew... That our story would end some day, and one of us would eventually go away... I sadly walk out the door, knowing that this has ended a war... A war between two lovers, between you and me, but I guess it was never meant to be... |
11.01.2006., srijeda
So unfair...
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Life is sometimes so unfair, that you wish to dissapear in the air... And just leave everything behind, forget the horrors on your mind... Think about nothing, just feel free, do what you want and be what you wanna be... But that isn't possible, am I right? That's something I ask myself every night... But I just can't find a way, to get easier through every day... And I figure that life's just a game, and when you're gone, no one remmembers your name.. That's written on a cold black stone, and you end up under the ground all alone... Then why try when everything you made, will one day just fade... But this is an adventure we have to get through, and we will hopefully be rewarded for fighting for what's true... |
07.01.2006., subota
Feelin'...
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In this dark night I'm sitting in my bed, tryin' not to think about all I've seen, heard or read... Just wanna forget all the tears and shame, inspite of the fact that I can't even remember my own name... I'm not cold, but I'm shaking, I'm not ad but tears do fall, I'm feeling like all things are out of control... Wanna figure out how to escape from what's real, and from this enmptyness I constantly feel... Cause I feel I don't belong to the world I'm in, I'm losing the battle I was supposed to win... Feeling so tired of all I've seen, of all those things that I don't know what they mean... And so tired I close my eyes, just to have a break from all the lies... Escaping into a world that's tottaly my own, to the world of dreams where I feel like home... Please don't wake me, I don't wanna face it all again, I'll wake up someday, till then... |
05.01.2006., četvrtak
Lack of inspiration...
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Ok, prije nego sto (i ako) pocnete citati, moram napomenuti da stvarno nemam ispiracije... i da je ovo NAJGLUPLJA PJESMA KOJU SAM IKADA SMISLILA... jer nema nikakve veze s nicim... tako da, molim vas imajte razumijevanja... i ako bas ne morate- nemojte ju niti citati!!! Bye Hey, people, may I have your attention, I finally came back inspite of the lack of inspiration... Writing stupid things no one wants to read... To bore you to death? No, just cause I have the need... Everything's good, life's just fine, as long as I can come up with a fuckin' rhime... I'm trying not to thing about how I'm mad at myself cause I can't come up with anything that wasn't allready read... But this is just me, like it or not, tryin' to be original just for you lot... That my next song won't be stupid like this, I want you to know, don't want you to fall asleep so I'd better go... And I really can't believe I'm gonna post this shit, sorry for the lack of inspiration, hope it'll be back in a bit... Ruljo, sutra postam nesto bolje (bilo sto je bolje od ovoga)... tako da... bye |
01.01.2006., nedjelja
A different side of life...
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it was alomg time ago, how long, i don't know. there was a girl who had all the glory... well, listen to her story. she had beauty, she had fame, life for her was just a big game. adventures were everyday things failiour something that life never brings. everybody loved her, she was always smiling, even though inside she was slowly dying. no one knew the fight she was fighting inside all the horrible things stuck in her mind. she found only one cure for all the pain inside of her. she started taking drugs, and started loving that feeling she made everything worse, instead of healing. at one point she wanted to quit, but it was late the only thing she was feeling was pure hate. she lost all her friends, all her fame people started avoiding saying her name. she wanted to put a stop at it and took a gun, people heard a bang, but it was impossible to undo what's been done. and that was the end of a life story of a girl who once had all the glory... |
30.12.2005., petak
Fading...
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I'm standing outside on the rain, hoping it washes out all the pain that's kept in my darkned soul, and fix my heart that once was whole... Hoping no one notices I'm crying, while all my hopes are slowly dying... The streets are empty, it's cold outside, I can't let the pain go, no matter how hard I tried... The rain is stopping, but tears keep falling, I won't turn around even though someone's calling... I feel my name doesn't belong to me, that I'm not the person I once used to be... p.s: moram priznati da sam se iznenadila sto vam se svida ovaj tip pjesama... pa hvala vam sto posjecujete moj blog ( u stvari oba bloga) ma ruljo, zakon ste!!! Samo sam htjela reci da ovaj blog ne znaci da cu zapustiti moj prvi blog LP Girl don't worry... ayde ruljo, jos jednom hvala... bye |
29.12.2005., četvrtak
Escape
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I'm walking down an empty street, The only thing I can hear is my heart beat... And every second I turn around, Looking for something I've already found... My breath freezing, my mind racing, Everything feels so unreal, even the fear that I'm facing... I just wanna run as far as I can, But where to go, and what then... I wanna escape from reality, escape from the lies, Don't wanna be the one that at night cryes... I feel like my life is worthless, Like living doesn't have a purpose... |